Friday, December 30, 2011

INSOMNIA!


its almost 2 a.m and i still cant sleep!


lovelove!

im an ULTRAMAN!

heyyy!
its been awhile...
no credit for like few days...no internet and no apa lg...its just that i was busy with my chores and bla bla bla...
"kau ne macam ultraman la neh..penyelamat dunia"...i get that from my aunt...lol..it was due to the situation where she found out that people(my family) keep on looking for me and ask for my help...jadi RACER la apa lagi...hee...i spent my days on the road memanjang...many HOURS on the road sja kali arr...i helped my aunt..i helped umi..i helped grandma n grandpa...sepa lagi~ but it was and it is FUN...thats my life skrg..i think...other than still studying and will keep on doing it until i get bored with alphabets and numbers i think....
ULTRAMAN bhaa sayaaa...


dude! if u read this...sorry lama xda text...xda kdt mmg...FB status jak dpat and yaa..itu la tuuu...



Tuesday, December 20, 2011

EVERYTHING'S HAPPEN FOR A REASON...

heyyy..now i know...
i just know laaa..kunun...everythng that happen to me..i mean ..all those things or any incidents or anythng which had treat me bad tu kann..i just know that it all happen for reasons...
tba2 plakk kan..mcm emo neh..anyway...I LOVE MY LIFE..like seriously..alhamdulillah laa cuz still have the chance to live until now and living a life like a princess where all people around me LOVE me...yeayyy! jgn jeless...for those yang sebaliknyaa tu,i just oity them cuz I DONT GIVE A DAMN klau they dont love me or what so ever...yg penting i have my FAMILY and FRIENDS wit me yang LOVE me mmg!
lovelove! 

GOOD MORNING!

heyyy...
new day...again...mcm penat gak hidUp neh...
apa2 pown,really hopee that the world and the "isi" in it will treat me good and nicely...
lovelove. =*

Sunday, December 18, 2011

hidup..begini la neh...

heyyy!
kinda feel lonely mmg...mum and other siblings went to labuan ysterday and im all alone here in kk live at my aunt's "heaven"...sunyiii xda omar wit me..sunyi cuz i kinda feel bad about smthng bUt theres no need to mention cuz ntah laa~ hard to jaga people's feelings...i just feel bad for those ive hurt..for them "its fine" la apa laa but yet i still ffel bad about everythng...i dnt know if its ok for not being able to satisfy them or give them what they want...for me,its crucial but i jst dont know how to complete and done that well...urghhh...tknan pown ada gak...
i had durian for breakfast..saja mau jadi gila for awhile and yaaa..my migrain dtg and im about to become GILA soon...lol.
have a nice day peeps! 

Monday, November 28, 2011

smuaaaaa laaa!

"org blogging bersebab...pnah dgar mmg..n now..yaa..aq mau post mmg...
migrain! kusut! damn upset! nangis sdh mmg.. :'((
all i can say skrg...my mood ruined...like totally....IM REALLY SORRY,MINTA MAAF,MINTA AMPUN... i deserve to be hated or xkna layan lg ka apa kaaa...i know that...ssh juga cuz i really cant n ddnt manage to make everyone around me to be happy...sndri pun sakit skrg...ne lagi mau think about others...
theres still ma any words mau kasitauu but just abaikan cuz xda mood mmg sdh....
people n frnds who knw me well tau sdh ne apa aq buat klau pissed off,sedih,geram apa smuaa...dats all i can do...cry and not able to do anything...baguss laah...

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

SINGLE LADY?

hey...
i wanna be single...i mean,i wanna stay SINGLE...that sjust what i want and really need it to be rspected. :)
im nOt in a mood to be hook up or "tied" to any guy out there...im nOt ready and doesnt want any serious relationship with any guy...like daym serious,NO! i just dont feel like having that kinda serious relationship with anyone...friend is all i needed~i mean,friends...lots of em...
SINGLE and thats what i wanna stand on.TITIK!


i just cant sleep thinking about all this stuffs...dayym...anyway,lovelove peeps!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!

LOL...
its my birthday! heee...


 hey...its 3 oclock in the morning and i just cant sleep n uhmmm..yaa..wanna share this...
i get a lots n lots of wishes through phOne n in FB accoUnt of coz..hee..
so far...hee... 
off to bed nOw..will be having a MUET exam this morning at 11..wish me LUCK...
lovelove peeps! 



Saturday, October 15, 2011

nOt to "hook" up with anyOne?

i think its better NOT to be in a relationship with sOmeone..ya x??
its nOt wrOng to love bUt thtas how i think..n i jUst think that , it dOent suits me...
perhaps there will be someone whO can change that perception of mine.lol

lovelove!

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

salam...
hee..hye! lama mmg xda bLogging..hee.. <3
anyways... issue : Mr.The Script.

huhuuuu~  

Monday, August 22, 2011

nO more WE/ US or yg swaktu dgannya....

i dOnt really feel good since td siang~actually, since the other days lg bUt mlas laaa...i jUst dnt feel gOOd and my mOOd is just dayym low...i dont really wanted to talk a lot n wUt so eva due to few reasons i think...i want the old US/ WE cUz i feel like the days like we used to have back then xda sdh today...seriously, i feel terribly sad...i know that its a good thing tio be like "together" n i am happy for it too..its just dat i dnt feel cmfortable i think...the rlation btween those involved is actually makes me feel so...no more good friends who will take care of each other n what we usually did back then before everythng went tuuutttttttt~ :'( i just feel awful...n feels dayym bad...sorry but this is what i feel.

sincerely,
'anak' terbiar

Monday, August 15, 2011

ini baru KEHIDUPAN!

hey...MANY things happen to me since the last day i pOsted my last pOst...i wanted tO post each and every single thing that happen to me BUT its just time that wont let me...
i feel UNloved right now...dont really know how to explain but this is how i feel right now...
i feel so lonely that i feel like  everythng isn't fair...pity me? u should not do that...all this things make me much stronger i think...
off to bed now...sambung later!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

REPENT...INSPIRED...MOTIVATED....lovelove!

saLam...
heyyy! its been awhile since the last time i pOsted smthng cne...
aNywayss...IM MOTIVATED by smthing jUst nOw...i was kinda feel sorry for myself for nOt being serious in my stUdy n nOw i really3 cant wait tO pUrsue n cOntinue my stUdy in degree level n stUdy n find experince as many as i can.... *to be continued...ada hal (lol)*


im bAck!
sAMBUng cetaaa...i was mOtivated n nOw im dayyym excited n  looking forward tO finish my diploma and cOntinue wit my degree..im pLanning to take tesyl cOurse or smthng as i LOVE ENGLISH   n yaaa..i wAnna be a TEACHER as well..*cool ayte??* its kinda lame bUt itu yg sya mau jadi since dulu2...SO,yaaaaa...CHAIYO2! 


im kinda feeling daymm DOWN nOw as many prObs seems tO disturbing me n distracting my fOcus ...i wanna revise my PAD390 as tmrrOw we have QUIZ knun..BUT SERIOUSLY,IM NOT IN A MOOD to stUdy or anythng...


IM also DAYM EXHAUSTED...sooo,NIGHT PEOPLE! lovelove!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

hye people!

assalamualaikum...heee..
mcm bAru tOn8 i gve salam ryte..
aNyways...HYE! nOw i kinda have sOme "free" time and cAn pOst smthng here...
well...yesterday n tOday wAs kinda bUsy day fOr me...ive tO read books,tidy up the hOuse,cOOking aNd etc..hehe..i enjOyed it thOugh... :))
uhmmm..im in dilemma or maybe in a cOnfuse or any stats that actually bUrden me here...its kinda hard jUst to tAke care of people's feeling...im the type who actually pUt people's feeling first rather than mine...i dnt kNow whther its good or nOt bUt dats me..i thnk dats the problem nOw...im jUst afraid that i might hUrt people's feeling if i dOnt really "communicate" or treat them well...i think,it need to be stated clearly that the FRIENDLY characteristic that i have is actually tO shOw that i do care abOUt people's feeling and i dOnt want to be called or labelled as "sNobbish" or any other BAd wOrd that describing me...well THAT'S PIQA! that's me!
u knOw Ut...i dnt feel like shOwing people my bLog as im kinda "malu2" or maybe afraid that people or gOnna jUdge me or smthng...bUt there's the other side of me which really wanted tO show the world and people hOw i feel and everythng...BUT..tgOk la nNt iv i rAjin or "tukar angin"...jUst wAit n see...
heyyy...feels sleepy..off fOr bed nOw... lovelove!

RAINY DAYS!

hey peeps! morning...
i dOnt kNow why bUt its kinda early for me to wake up a this early in the mOrning where the sUn bLom shOw up lg..hha...i slept earlier at 9 yestrday n yaaa..here i am nOw...wAke up earlier and feel like pOsting an entry and share wit u guys here....hee...
soooooo....i really wAnted to pOst as many entriws i can every single day bUt it seems like my days kinda hectic and dayyym bUsy...hee...new smester has begun and assignmnts given are kinda NICE tooo...the RESEARCH 340 thing is oNe of them...
i dnt really kNowwhat to write nOw as im still bLurrr as i jst wOke up...heee..sooo..meet ya soon gUys...
lovelove!
*mcm i fall in LOVE jga sdh neh...nNt ceta k!lol*

Thursday, June 9, 2011

EARLY MORNING!

hey...im sUppose to be in bed by nOw..i wAs planning to sleep bUt i ended up sitting here in frOnt of this pc aNd narrating things..hhaa..no laa..actually...i was intended to sleep as i was damn sleepy jUst nOw bUt...yeah..im here...hmmm...new smester for my last sem of diploma has just begun and i was kinda excited as i really want all of this end and start wit a new life n study...EXCITED! sgt!


i miss sOmething bUt i just dnt knOw what is dat...a person?a thing? a memories? dOnt knOw!
i've class this morning at 8 and still here and cant sleep! i think im off for bed nOw cUz i was intended to jUst write smthng or maybe even just a few words on this lonely bLog as its been a long time since the last time i posted an entry...soo...love ya peeps! lovelove!
*mOre nEw stOries nanti as i jUst remembered many things happen lately...haha*

Saturday, May 28, 2011

SELAMAT PETANG DUNIA!

hey! its 4 in the aftrnoon nOw...aNd im in my rOOm wit oMar and waiting foR my dad to cme back from "masjid" then we'll be leaving for pak o's hOuse...ziarah menziarah la katakan...
its been awhile sya dgr ne lagu RUFFEDGE ooo...aq minat gLa ne grOUP dlu n the oNe yg i like the most was and still AZAN..heee...i just like his look...
anyways,y am i typng all this juga kann...its bcuz i dunno wUt to type and wut to share...wait until midnight then there will be trillions stuffs that i wanna share..hhaa...
sooooo...yaaa..jUmpa lg...lovelove!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

LAMA x jUmpa U!

hey! its been a veeeeeeeeeeeeery looooooooong time since the last time i updated my blog bha kannn...ne pOwn tgah meRAJINkan diri m'update neh...wlaupun x rmai yg FOLLOW my bLog,ttap mcm ada yg bca gak i rsa..hhaa i i u u arrr me nOw...anywAys!
 ALHAMDULILLAH laa cUz my resuLt for this smester saaangat great n mningkat gak laa...wlaupun x sbrapa bUt yg pntg usaha slama ne x sia2 kan kan..ive been studying like hell kNUn...iyaa laa..didint get enOugh sleep n sat for exam for 5 straight days where each paper taken everyday for the whole 2 weeks..nOt whole laa bUIt seriously ..dayym hectic! kena2 lg im the type whO always do the "last minUte" study kann..cUz dats the oNLy way im able to adapt all the "ilmu2" gave by the lecturers...FRANKLY...apa2 pOwn..THUMBS UP ieQa!

heeee...peeps! FYI..ive been sickd fOr a week...ive hAd this "GASTRIC" problem thing which kinda killing me as i cAnt mOve n jUst to lay dOwn on bed  felt like my tUmmy wAs like explode or smthng...it felt like the tUmmy been scratched or smthng..apa2 pOwn,IT DAMN HURTS! i ddnt eAt for like 3 days as i'll throw em all oUt juga after i ate...sO,nO use! it wAs a great damn painful experience n it'll be mOre siOk if i was admitted in hospital or smthng..haha! i LIKE!
heyyy..i kiNda realize smthng u knOw...its like daymm awful just tO know that there are many gUys i kNow whO actually add HOT GIRLS in FB wlaupun they dnt knOw each other...



n the intention by dOing so is jUst to staLk n ada NIAT juga laa untk berknal2an cUz manala tau kan they will TER HOOK UP or smtthng...its like OMG!!HAHA...i dnt knOw abOUt the grls who did the same twrads the gUys bUt itu laa..i just wanna kasi kuar my opinion laaaa...there are also girls like dat i think bUt im nOt gOnna say this here if i dO that kan kan... :)) its nOt wrOng to do that..bUt seems like gUys nOwadays CaNT be tRusted n everythng..ive seen n met gUys yg actually looking for HOT GIRLS or CHIx to be their gF n be prOud of dat n everythng...sO,as a CONCLUSION,im nOt gOnna choose a gUy with that criteria.NOKTAH
lalalallalallalala....

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

LAMA X JUMPA!

hey hey hey peeps! dayymm lama xda pOst anythng here kaan...aNyway...im kinda bUsy lateLy...although ada free time,itu pown,siiiikit jak...
mANy things happened n dNt knOw where tO start...huhu...
since hari tu lagi bUsy mmg..ne lg exam is jUst aroUnd the cOrner! OMG! i shud be studying ryte nOw bUt tgOk laa..stiLL dpan laptop n everythng...huhu...
bnyak ceta bUt maybe later then i update k...LOVELOVE!
LOVE BRUNO MARS! dayyyym im in love wit his vOice!

Monday, March 28, 2011

hari2 penat...mana tahan...

hey peeps!
im damn exhausted! S.O.S.! mcm itu TITLE bilang...hari2 pnaat...saya x than ooo...cLasses, bOOks,wOrds,aLphabets n smUa bNda yg kNa mngeNa dgAn stUdy or aNythng yg ive been thrOUgh for like EVERYDAY are sangat2 memenatkan...stress..tension..iya kalii..xtAu laa bUt everythng is kinda fine fOr me juga as smua tU is experience fOr me n everybOdy has to gO thrOugh the same thng as me juga kan...hee..
bUt so far or maybe...skrg..my life is kinDa fUn tOO...i have mAny cOoL,hillarioUs,nice,caring,"kili" n fUnny friends...mcm2 gAya ada drg tu...they are thOse whO brighten up my dAys yg bLeh bikin gLa tu...(LOVE THEM!)
dUnno wUt tO write...(bnyk actuaLLy bUt mcm mlas jugaa...)
hey...u knOw wUtt...
its been a week sdAh n i xda mkAn NASI or org bckap "RICE"! hee...ive been thinking abOUt nOt gOnna mkan nAsi untk few days bha at frst bUt mcm bLey tahan sO i extend laa smpAi skrg...msUk today,dha 8 days i ddnt mkan nAsi...hehe(*cLapcLap*)...jUst wAnna tRy nEw things n wAnna experience nEw me laa...hee...kLau xmkan nAsi, i onLy eAt noodles ...i knOw its cArbs jUga bUt at least bkan NASI juga nmanya kan...nyaman juga laa..iv xmkan nAsi pOwn,msh gAk knyang rsa prUt...(COoL kan kan) ...
SERIOUSLY! im tired! im exhausted! lalalalallaa...
we're gOnna have a DINNER ne bhaa untk oUr facuLty FSPPP...(FSPPP stands fOr faculty of science political aNd policy stUdies..) neyh!...the dInner will be heLd d sna grAnd baLLrOom 1b ...it'll be held on the 3rd of april iv im nOt mistaken..yg pNtg...SUNDAY laa...

y aM i ceta aLL this stUffs tO u'??hee..bOsan! dUnno wUt to write...there are mAny thngs i wanna share bUt ...later laaa...off fOr bed nOw! nyte peeps! lovelove! 

Saturday, March 26, 2011

missingyouwhodontdeserveme!

hey! imin the middle of a sitUatiOn where my hEad is kiLLin me...M.I.G.R.A.I.N! sakit kaplaaa!
anyway...im thnking of pOsting this eNtry to share hOw hUrt i am ryte nOw...misshim!wish u knOw this! SERIOUSLY!


i kNowwwww...i am DUMB....help me ya ALLAH...help me smUanyaaa...
off fOr bed.lovelove


Thursday, March 24, 2011

heyheyhey!

hey peeps! hari2 i wAnna pOst smthng bUt seriOusLy dUnno wUt to pUt in as the title..hee..
ive sooo mAny things to cer2 bUt kinDa bUsy dOin my assignmnts sja neh...aND my eyes is kinda mau tutu jugaa..sooo sitt!bhaa..ya laa..off for bed! sorry la lately my pOst smua bOsan2...nyte peeps!lovelove!

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

tuesday kOO!

hey!
iLIKEthissOng! hahahaha
like seriousLy..ive been cLicking the PLAY bUtton fOr like sooo many times..downloaded the sOng aNd REPLAY it! hahaha..siOk mmg bhaa!
anyway...im abOut to sLeep few minUtes ago when i remembered that ive a qUiz dUe tmrrOw yg i havent bUat..soo..TERpaksa la bgUn kJap then buat the qUiz...n NoW..im tired n sleepy! soooo..nyte peeps! lovelove

Monday, March 21, 2011

LOVELOVELOVE!

hey!
i kinda have to type again! ive to type again as all the thng ive typed just gOne! urghhhh..
anyway...im supposely went to bed since taaadi bUt uhmmm i feel like typing n share sumthng here wit u..huhu...i just fnshed watchng BURLESQUE...
uhmmmm...lamee...haha..i knowww..the mUvee was sooo lma ody  kuar d cnema bUt i just watchd it skrg...ive nO time to do so bha actually..as i was bUsy dOin OTHER thingg...anyway! it wAs AWESOME n ilked it! hhaa..n i thinkive fall fOr dis gUy over here...




hahahah...yeahhh.. i fall for dis gUy! he played the role JACK in dis mUvee bUt uhmmm...his real name is CAM smthng smthng...anyway...i fall for him! hahaha...it was a great mUvee thOugh...

hey...tOpic chnge...yesterday..i "chat" wit  a friend of mine that kinda have dis :"feeling" twards me bUt never told me abOut it since long time agooo when i was year in uitm as a pre-comm student i think....he's a friend of my bLuvd cUzzie a.k.a my sis nurul as well...
anyway...he was actually  confessed yesterday n im nOt dat shOck wit it bUt i was kinda afraid...i dnt knOw bUt im afraid..im afraid that i might hurt him mOre like i used to when i did a HUGE MISTAKE by accepting his bestfriend gUy...that jerk! ...im afraid that i might hurt him n cannOt gve him wUt he wnt from me...n i did toLd him dat im really3 in a cOndition where i cannOt accept anyOne at this very mOment as this HEART in me is still in a bAd cOnditiOn n stiLL feel HURT like hell...im still missing dat gUy whO has brOke myheart withoUt ....urghh..dOntknOw...bUt whAT important is..i feel relief..i think..
this gUy the frnd of my cUzzie...he toLd me that he wouLd wAit for me nO matter hOw long cUz he said he really wnt me..bUt..i dnt kNow...its jUst hard for me tO trUst gUys sUdah...like SERIOUSLY!
i dnt knOw bUt ive read his bLog and all his words shOwing dat he really3 sincere aNd everythng that can shOws that i will be loved fOr sUre...he's a nice gUy...bUt..its me...i Just cant!(agak emo saya ini mlam)

oNe more thing...IMISSHIM!help me ya allah..help me tO get rid this feeling i have for that jerk as it hurt me sooo mUch that i can t bAre it... :(( im crying ryte nOw...u knOw i'll cry everytime im sad..even tiny thngs can make me cry....apa lg ini...missing him makes me cry...thinking of what he have done to me makes me cry...i cant even think of him as it'll make me cry...seriously i need help! wish he knOw hOw awful this ffeling that i have for him until this very mOment...it hurts me so ...ive tO bare this feeling alone aNd seriously it hUrt me a lot!

anyway...ryte here ryte nOw...my dada sakit sgt laa...dNt know y bUt it has been sakit since td siang...anyway..im better off for bed...ada klas tmrrOw..soo..iv i rajin..see U when u see u!lovelove!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

ITS UR BIRTHDAY KHALIDAH KHALID my luvly sissss!

hey mOrning!
its my sis ieda's burthday tOday! heee...ive wished her n try tO call  her bUt bcUz of the "no insufficient balance credit: that i have..i ddnt make it..bUt ive texted her! hahaa...reaLLy hOpe she know dat....
anyway...this sOng sUits me nOw...hahahaa..ayaat tu bhaa..ngam ka jugaa...
naa..dis song bhaa..
uhmmm..gtg..jap lg i smbung dis entry k..lovelove!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

uhmmmmmmmmmmmm...

hey peeps! qUite siOk tonite as the rain is nOn stOp falling...hha...i like mmg...
.stylecovered.com ...i was dOing my assignmnts when suddenly i remembered that i`ve had "LIKE" a page of hijab`s collectiOn where there'S one gorgeous looking woman as the model...anyways,her name is HANA TAJIMA SIMPSON iv im not mistaken anddd...I LIKE AND LOVE her styLe! she inspired many or maybe qUite majority girls that i knew whom wearing hijab and some who are nOt...anyway... I LIKE!
assignments masih bnyak...n yEt..stiLLthinking smau bnda yg xptUt...IMISSHIM!F*** laaa bilang..sit btul...
anyways,im sLeepy rite nOw...off fOr bed dLu k... :))

Friday, March 11, 2011

LOVELOVELOVE


I LIKE SGT SGT SGT! OMG!haha..
ada lae...
im currently is watching dis vids...saaaaaaaaaangat sUka!


Thursday, March 10, 2011

OFFICIALLY MISSING U??? F*** laaaa!

hey! dAmn ooo! IMISSYOU! n pity me cUz  maybe u`re nOt reading this aNd might nOt knOw thAt im stiLL thinking of u eventhOUGh u dOnt deserve it...dadadadadaa...like sriously I HATE THIS FEELING! ...
i dOnt wanna pOst this kinda thing here aNd bLuffing anD shOw dat im dat wEak ...bUt at this mOment,this is the oNLy way i can express myself aNd nOt disturbing others...this bLOg gOnna be the oNe who will listen tO me and yeahhh...git tuuuu arr..
aNyways,im damn exhausted as tOday`s lecture classes were kiNda daaaayyym hectic and i jUst came back frOm my night class which finished at 10...ya ALLAH! only god knOws hOw tired i am..nAmun..i cAnt sleep  early jUga at the same time...assignments banyak tu,iya la juga bUt i think dat maybe mmg xbley tdo cUz tlampau apa yaaa...dUnno laaa...maaa sihh lae xtaw apa2 ne kNun...kili!
untuk djadikan crita,recently n semenjak dua menjak neh,my memories or my "daya ingatn" nOt dat gOOd ne bhaa...many things dat jUst happened to me or any bnda yg mau dbuat,I CANT REMEMBER lgsung...the thoughts pndai dtg ckit2 xlma lpas tu la tapi...(sOrry ayat tunggang terbalik.LOL) apa2 pOwn,jUst maw gtau e2 jak...PNDAI HILANG INGATAN juga saya neh...SHORT TERM MEMORY LOST org BRUNEI bilang...

IM NOT READY! thAnx tO HIM! :((

hey...
d pagi yg iNdah ini...i jUst need sOmethng tO write oN as im damn wOrry abOUt the feelings of peopLe arOund me nOw...dnt kNOw y bUt im kiNda feel dat ive been loved qUite mUch n dadadaddaaaa...i jUst wAnt them tO knOw that i oNy can love them hOw i love my famiLy ...i jUst cAnt love anyoNe mOre than they expected rite nOw cUz i dnt feel like to...im nOt in a mood to do so..dUnno y  or maybe nOt sUre cUz I JUST CANT do dat...im nOt in a mOOd to be in a relationship wit sUmOne and so oN...wish dat i can tell..
dUnno la iv im telamapau "cover" my ayat bUt yes...i JUST WANT PEEPS OR GUYS AROUND ME to NOT really expecting more frOm me...im jUst nOt ready fOr any cOmmitment or wUt so ever..im damn wOrried ryte nOw...HONESTLY!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

JUMPA AGAIN!

heyyy...its been sooo long since the last day ive updated my bLog ayte...huhu..
anyways...im damn tired actually bUt still awake tO fnish my assignmnt kNun BUT...bnyak distractions like FB...YOUTUBE...n bLog ging ne xpa la...its ok..hee..
u knOw wUt..gLa tiring ne few days neh...since last week lg,there r lots n lots of assgnmnt n keja lain needed to be dOne...and..alhmdulillah ada dh yg slesai..n nOw..ada few lg left...bUt yg pnting,i ada usaha ok...
many things happened since xda update bLog neh...
ive been sUffering a bAd daymm day jugabcuz of few thngs...psal sepa lg kannn..apa2 pOwn,it was damn hArd...cOnfidence pOwn mcm hlang bcuz of dat..sakit pown msh rsa smpai skrg bUt im trying tO really3 gEt over it..SERIUS neh! xda msa la bha maw think abOUt dat jerk anymore..waste of time...the gaya is soooaa "bida'"...serius bida'...tau dh the gaya mcmna...rupanyaa kann..taking everythng for benefits...trUth pOwn dh bnyak dha tau ckit..sooo..ok la..jUst let me knOw smua sndri..maw explain n bgtaw nnt,mcm xda gUna n dat person nOt gonna mngaku anyway...
engat balik apa my miss farahan ckap tadi(when we mkn2 n she kinda bg ceramah n advise n share2 ceta2,),she said yg a gUy should actually just tell the truth bla maw ckap psal bnda2 yg might hurt a girl1s heart...bla dha baik2 dpat a girl tu,baik2 la juga kasi  lpas ...nO need tO tipu2 or bg BULLSHITS n craps alsan apa smua untk cOver the real niat of the :perpisahan"..cewaahh..ckup llaa jiwang neh..apa2 pown,btul bha juga apa miss ckap tu ...n ive realized hOw awful dat thing is when he made dat kinda decision...dat person was right when said dat I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER...INDEED! lega nOw..happy pown adaaa!!!hhaaa...happy withOut dat person!
bhaa..wAnna prOceed dOin assgnment yg dcintai dLu k..meet u again LATER! love love!

Friday, February 25, 2011

awfuL.exhAusted.stress.sAd.speechless.

hey! lma ddnt update my bLog mmg...
im kiNda bUsy wit assignments and dadadadaaa...
anyways,im ffeLing sooooooooooo DOWN ryte nOw...nOt in a mOOd to smile,and smua yg siOk2 laa...im sooo sad siNce yesterday i think..yesterday when i foUnd oUt abOUt a trUth yg mMg i ody knOw since dLu bUt wAs cOnfirmed yesterday...
i wAs sooo hUrt aNd feLt like ive been used ...(wlaupun if dats nOt the intention of him)...bUt stiLL,i dont feel good abOUt it...im sad and feel dat its awfuL when treated dat way...i really2 cAnt describe wUt the exact word for this feeling cUz smuaa feeling ada neh...urgggghhhh!
seriOusLy,n frAnkly typing...I AM NOT GONNA EASILY TRUST GUYS WORD dat cOme oUt frOm their d*** mOuth or wUt so eva...
dUnnO laa bUt ITS HARD TO TRUST thOse fuckin woRds ody...mcm bUnyi frUst and sdih bha kan...NAMUN,its nOt! it shOws dat i really am x sUka lagi for wUt had happened tO the trUst aNd apa2 yg oDy gve in a realtiOnship...(soooooo emO!) TOLONGLAH PLANET!
i jUst fnished CRYING! haha...djadikan ceta,tAdi i cried...dUnno y bUt tonite im kinda EMO ckit...psal bnda yg kemarin i found oUt tu la tu...trus td tba2 i was tOuched by a post by my girlfirnds..tapi ternyata I WAS THE ONE yg sensitive sgat n it was just a misunderstood...i cried cUz i was afraid dat i might lose them n not having them by my side..i love both mmg.(cyeakin n pJa) n dats y im afraid to lose them...bUt things cleared n smua ok bUt i was still crying bcUz HAL TADI tu..huhu..
i cried peeps! mcm besa la kan..im oweys gOnna dat whenever im upset,mad,happy,excited and everything...dats PIQA!
apa2 pown,mcm mAw mninggal bsok plak aq rsa tonite cUz smua yg jarang tegur me,they actually tegur me,b`comment n ceta wit me ne mlam..i feel like everybOdy LOVE me...mcm everybOdy care aboUt me n I LOBVE THEM ALL jugaaa! im kinda happy n tau gak yg mmg ada rmai lagi oUt thre yg oweys be thre for me..my abah..umi..my siblings...cuzzins,girlfriends..friends...hee...

Monday, February 21, 2011

I.AM.SO.IN.LOVE!




BRUNO MARS BRUNO MARS BRUNO MARS! awwwwwwwwwwwww!
i am sooooo in love with his vOice! n maybe the look juga laa BUT paling pnting, I LOVE his vOice...
im at hOme...wAiting tO get ready fOr cLass at 2...sir mAt zin`s cLass! (saaaaaaaaLin!)
anyway,its been a long time since the last day i updated my bLog..apa2 pOwn, see u later!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

..................

hEy! i wAnna type mAny things here bUt dUnno whre tO start...ive been spending my time dOin assignments dat still haven`t fnish until nOw...
i wanna type many things bUt my eyes are gettin ... im off for bed nOw...n just pUt all thOughts of him aqay...love ya! miss ya!
LOVE LOVE peeps!

Monday, February 14, 2011

DILEMMA???kaa any other wOrd dAt sUits hOw i feel ryte nOw??

hey...its been quite  along time since the last day i updated my dEar bLog...n im decide on updating and made this entry after i read a bLog of a friend of mine...ive nO idea...im sAd...im bLurrr..im speechless(of cOz laa..type plak ne kan)...anyway...im soooo SAD..i think...apa org mlayu bilang,sedih..or maybe the word TOUCHED yg ngam kali...im so terharu by a person yg really2 ..i dnt know laa...i dnt knOw dat sUm1 can love me dat mUch although ive responded quite few times ony...ive nO idea hOw to face dat person...dat person is a kind person and i dnt wanna hurt the pUre n sincere heart that the person have...im soooo tOuched n feel like crying ryte nOw...i dnt knOw how to tell that there`s still only ONE person i love the mOst untill nOw other than my family n frnds laa...bUt stiLL...ive nO idea at all...





sriously i dOnt wanna hurt that person...i just ...urghhhhhhhhhhhh! im in the middle of smwhre where i still need tO get over sUm1 althoUgh im still really really really love dat person ...i dnt knOw...srius aq xtaww...tLg laa pLanet...ksian bha iv i cant gve dat oerson what dat person want...LOVE! COMPLICATED...isnt it? mcm2 bhaa..e2 laa..umi slalu ckap,"jgan la dlu maw bcnta2 neh..study laa dlu"...bUt nOthings wrOng wit it bha kan...the feeling cannOt be avoided ryte...its jUst dat Ure the one yg ptut tahu hOw to handle it...bUt, i admit that im nOt strOng enOugh tO do that n i knOw everybOdy`s nOt...
its gettin late peeps...bnyak bha i wanna type here bUt lmbat dha..nNt pagi maw pg klas...sooo...LOVE LOVE!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

saya mengantUk!

hAri ini saaaaaaaaaaaaangat siOk ! bUt ada gak yg xsiOk nya laa...apa2 pOwn,biar gAntung cUz im gOnna update n ec ceta2 yg lain later...my eyes gLa2 berat ody nOw n im off fOr bEd k peeps! LOVE LOVE!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

TYPELESS...lol

hey...lma ka i ddnt updAte new entry?hee...bUsy dOin assigNments n stUdied fOr test n qUizzes la katakan..(rAjinn oo me...hehe)
aNyways...i feeL like updAting my bLog tOnite...(night ka lg when its 12 oclock in the midnight)hee...
i am dAmn tiRed as eventhOugh my cLass shouLd start at 4pm tOday after the 8am class was cancelled, i wOke up earLy in the mOrning n have tO hantar c tOyOl to cLass n everythng...n at 10, i went to kasi kwan my sis nru; to urus her keja ckit then we went tO amik her lappy yg she sent tO KARAMUNSING to kna baiki...then...we baLik itm cUz we need to gO to the lbrary tdi tgahri cUz msing2 ada keja mAw bwat d sna...i wAs dOin sOme revision on my LG d sna with cyeakin my bAbe n jAnub aNd oOney...hee..i met my bAbe aLif gak sna  wit awAnk n meL his classmate...then,ada cLass at 4 n ada qUiz lg after wAiting for prOf mAtzin for like an half an hOur cUz he ada meeting...class ended at 6 aNd yaaa...smbUng again until mlam..cLass LAW plak at 7...naaa...
aNyway...pnaaaaat laa bhaa...


i caLLed umi (my mOm) yesterday n asked her abOut my lil brO uMar...he actuaLLy went for his first kindergarten school n umi sAid that he did cried bcUz maybe he`s still in a "lovemyhOuse" mood n everythng...bUt things gettin better when the time he fnshd his kindergarten sessiOn n jOined umi in cLass while my mUm is mengajar sna...pLus,AIMAN his best bUddy was in the class where my mUm ajar n mcm besa...the cLass pOwn rbUt bcuz they pLayed "tembak2" by using their penciL bOx n i can imAgine hOw cUte they were at that time ...hhaa...(fham ka jUga the sitUation??)heee...

  
my bLuvd lil brO UMAR
umAr`s bEst bUddy n oUr bLuvd cUzzin, AIMAN




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imisshim! wish dAt i cAn loopa all this things easiLy...n lmbt tO regret n i admit dat its better nOt to mess up wit LOVE n tO be in love...i knOw its nOt wrOng to do so bUt itu laaa... mlasss laa wanna taLk abOut it,..jUst wanna share wit u dEar siLent bLoggy...imisshimdamnmuch! :'((  

 
okie dOkie...enOugh fOr today i think...dUnnO apa mAw share lg...my eyes pOwn dh mAw tutOp...soooo...nyte...LOVE LOVE! 

Saturday, February 5, 2011

its me again!

hey!
kiNda bUsy lately...i wAs spending my time at mak O`s (my aUnt) hse in tUaran...bUsy helping her wit her "kedai rUncit"...hee..jAdi pengUsaha kedai bhaa try2 kan...bUt it wAs fUn...cOoL ...yEt a bit tiring...ejAh(my bLuvd cUzzie), atuL  (my adik tersayang) n i didnt gEt enOugh sLeep n we were sO damn tired spAnjang the time i wAs there...cAnt imAgine hOw tired ejah is cUz she`s kiNda aLone d sna withOut atul n me n other cUzzins...pity her..wish dAt i cAn be thre oweys n helpd her or accOmpany her... :((
im tiRed gLa2 ryte nOw...ddnt get enOugh rest gAk...n i jUst finished dOin sOme "revision" oN PAD 365...cUz we r gOin to have a TEST on this cOmin mOnday..wOkehhh! rajin kannn meeee?? hee...
there r mAny things yg im thinkin abOut ryte nOw...bUt dUnno whre shOuLd i start...i jUst dUnno whAt exActLy im thinkin ryte nOw...gOnna update my bLog again...LATER...
love love!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

"KAWAN"

JUST FRIEND ok???


 it hUrts me a lot bUt the fAct need tO be faced...sooo...yaaa...im gLad n hAppy dat the relationship still ada bUt jUst let me be the one yg feel the pAin aNd JUST me jak laa...oNLy aq jak taw the pAin n everythng yg hUrt me gLa2...its nOt easy tO get rid of everythng n it needs time...bUt still, i feel yg nOthing cAn ever chAnge the feeLing aNd the pAin n L*** yg i hAve sKrg...
forgot tO kasi msUk dis in the earlier enTry...
ya aLLah...pLease heLp me sO dat i cAn get over him n tLg laa sO dat im nOt gOnna sUffer sndri2 lg nnt cUz it DAMN hurt...u knOw ka sakitnya when he taLked abOut finding other girl...n when the time he asked me to find sOmeone better than him whom i deserve better...it hurts sO much when he said that as there is nO chance for us nO more... i knOw im a bit EMO tonite bUt this is hOw i feel n i dUnno where tO share all dis cRap...takUt nnt pple bOsan maw dgar my cer neh...klau bLogging ne,my bLog jUst gOnna diam2 n tgOk im typing...tEars faLLin mcm besa ryte nOw...i jUst cAnt hOLd it nO more weii..saaaaaaaaaaaakit gLa! im txting wit him mcm besa n act like we`re ok(bUt mmg oK pown)...its just dat,ME...im the oNe yg stiLL cAnt get over it...fOr thOse yg knOw me,they all taw la IF ONCE I`VE LOVED SOMEONE,THAT SOMEONE GONNA BE LOVED ALWAYS...everybOdy knOws its hard gLa tO loopa bNda yg drg rsa BEST MOMENTS for them kan kan....dats hOw im sUffering ryte nOw...IM CRYING gLa2 ryte nOw! pity mee...aNyone??? :'((  tO be hOnest,deep inside me,mmg ada hOpe so dat things jadi mcm dLu again...bUt tgOk keadaan sKrg ne...tAmbah sAkit laaa dada...


HEY! wei! yayyyy!

heLLo meLLow! i sUppOsedly dh tdO by nOw bUt stiLL mnahan mata ini bcUz of the INETESTING news oN whAts hAppening in EGYPT...akbal a friend of mine yg tOLD me abOut dat n tup tup tup...the repOrt qUite interesting n i trUs expLore mOre on it...its kinda HOT news dh juga...it even kLuar d brta d tV of cOz cUz  it invoLved MALAYSIAN pple yg still ada d egypt itself...sO...many thngs hAppen n its kiNda BAD ngettin WORSE as egypt sepertinya bcOme gLa2 CHAOS...well, iv u wAnna share n knOw mOre hOw interesting it is, cLick oN thOse LINKS beLow...
http://www.almasryalyoum.com/en/multimedia/video/alexandria-mourns-anger-victims
http://sherahxoxo.blogspot.com/2011/01/kisah-sebenar-di-egypt-baca-dan.html?spref=fb
http://www.almasryalyoum.com/en
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/1/31/apworld/20110131211046&sec=apworld
http://krisismesirnasibrakyatkita.blogspot.com/

n banyak lgi n i`ll update it sOOn k...
mata ngAtuk gLa ody n im off fOr bed peeps! love love!

Monday, January 31, 2011

hello yello mellow!

hey...havent updated my bLog wit the latest entry lg taw...i actuaLLy wanted tO pOst few entries last 2 days bUt malass i think...urghhh...smpai bLa la bgne kan...nOw that i wanna type2 ne..bhaa..jOm laa...hehe...
im cUrrentLy listening tO dis sOng...siOk! i LIKE!


anyways,IMISSMANGGA! S.O.S! sakit dAda ne menahan...im stiLL nOt over it...OMG! i need heLp!

laen cetaa...yesterday,my bRight SUnNy SUNDAY was awesOme! i wEnt bAck hOme from nurul`s hOuse in the mOrning aNd settled all chOres in at hOme befOre went oUt to bUy tOOty`s gifts for her wedding which was heLd yesterday gak d rmhnya...after pickin up wiyAh at school then we weNt to tOOty`s wedding aNd spent like an hOur there...it wAs crOwded gak la as many peopLe came to tOOty`s wedding aNd mcm besa....CUCI MATA ada gak laa...(astaaaa)...syL (my bestie bAbe cyeAkin`s BOYFIE) pOwn ada dtg...cyeakin yg accOmpany me n syL for whoLe time we were there...
then...ptAgnyaa..after pickin up wiyah frOm her frnd`s brthday pArty,we fEtched abah at hOme and straightAway pg mArina tO meet the KITANIs....hehe...we meet there aNd mAkan2 n ceta2 whiLe the eLders ada "mEEting" aNd discussiOns mcm besa...hehe...apa2 pOwn,we aLL agak knyAng gak la aLthoUgh the fOOds are qUite "nOt my tAste"...mcm xsdAP pOwn ada cUz my fish n chip xhbs pLak...(sEriOus xsdAaaap!)

then...after mkAn2 n ceta2 n wAited fOr drg ejAh n atuL yg AGAK LEWAT sampAinya...we tOOk the last bite then grAk p atas tO BOWL! hehe...after the niAt kemaren xmnjAdi mAw main d 1B,we mAde it bUt nOw speciaL ckit cUz SIOk! privAcy tU ada when we play d mArina neh...hehe...apa x...kmi cUzzins2 jAk yg kinDa cOnqUer dAt pLace aNd mAin sesuka hAti mAti...hehe..
we pLayed 1 gAme jak as xsmpAt mAw main extra gAme cUz the eLders dha mmnggiL kMi n we hAve tO leave...
BUT... (ada BUt lg d stU yaaa) ...bUt the "meeting" havent ended there as the eLders brOught us tO the next destinAtiOn tO MAKAN2 ....AGAIN! HEHE...TP xpa la cUz i ddnt eAt mUch d mArina befOre...hehe...we went tO SALA THAI whch located sna HARBOUR CITY...dat pLace agak crOwded gak laa..rmai oREg mkan sna gak...n nO wOnder la rmai cUz the fOOd pOwn agak NYAMAN gak...we orderd TOM YAM n it wAs DAYM HOT n SPICY mmg! the tAste mmG ngAm n NYAMAN klau org brUnei biLang...nxt time mAw pg lagi ...(mAw ikUt??)
 after dOne eAting,aNd the cLock shOwd it wAs aLready 10pm smthng n smUa dh knyang,we aLL berangkat balik laa..hehe...after kLuar rmah at 4pm, 10.45pm gtu bru baLIk...siOk kan kan...
apa2 pOwn..i ENJOYED my day yg i spent wit my famiLy n cUzzies!
i shOULd`ve sLeep dri tdi bha ne n nOw that the cLock shOws its 3AM...naaa.. i mMg SHOULD sLeep nOw...sO,peeps...im off fOr bEd! LOVE LOVE!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

hari rabu koo seperti biasa!

hey! pnaaaaaaaaaaaat! i wanna update earlier bUt the sakit "malas" melanda jUst nOw...
sOoooo...jOm ceta!
i jst came back from itm tO fetch c "toyol" frOm his "kompang" prActice...anyways...dats nOt the oNly stOry mOrrie fOr tOday as there are kiNda few mOre interesting stOries tO share bUt tgOk laa iv i rajin tO type cUz my eyes kinda mAw ttup ody...hUh!
dis mOrning i wOke up late at 7.23a.m...its a bit late cUz i usually woke up at 6.50 to get rEady fOr cLass...bgUn lmbat siiiiiiiiiikit jak laa bha dat...nO biggie! apa2 pOwn,i went for a class where the lecturer bLom tau ada or nOt aNd fOr sUre,tAdi still; bLm ada lectrer fOr oUr LAW309 class...kAn msir nAdzim transferred ody...(tOLD u in the last pOst taw!)...anyways...rAjin oo us tAdi...the others who came were HASMAH,KAK BIBI,SAIDA,SARINA,SANARIA,AIDIL,DALILAH,JANUB aNd OONEY...(bUdak2 bakal DEKAN)hhaaaa!*teeehi* we stayed d FASTRACK until almost 10a.m aNd we actuaLLy had stUdied fOr the 330 qUiz which will be tAken at 2pm class ...aNd again...RAjin kan us! heee...
then,we went smUa sma2 tO cLass in FASA 3...mdam DAIYAnkkkkk`s cLass...DONIA!...we learned the SPPSS thing aNd yaaa..it was cOoL!
fOr lunch...biArlah rAhsia n oNLy me n my bEsties jAk kNow abOut it...haha! (kLau mAw tAw,tANya laa)

untk cLass at 2pm,PAD330...ada 15 miNutes qUiz and the rest of the time,we have been lectured on the tOpic caLLed "PERSONALITY"...According to Stephen...personality can bedefined as bla bla bla...it wAs qUite eAsy aNd my bAbe rAchel mAke it eAsier fOr me tadi...i love her! hhaa...

uhmmm...in the evening...i went bAck hOme earlier jugaa cUz i usually balik at 6pm bUt this time aq baLik awal n helped my aUnt nAni mAsak!heehee...aNd again...rAjin kAn me...
activity in the evening..mcm besa laa...
n nOw,after hbis dOin sOme research fOr the PAD340 subject aNd  stUdy OB(skema nya!), i wAnna minta diri n off fOr bed ayte? ...pnaaat bhaaa...tiring dAy fOr me huh...hee..apa2 pOwn...LOVE LOVE!

n...1 mOre... 

 ...this sOng i LIKE! bUt nOt the iNtRo of the vids lar k...its sOoOoO nOt me k! love love!

Monday, January 24, 2011

dont know what to put in as title...

heLLo meLLow yeLLow golo golo! hey! im in the uitm`s library yall...im hre to kunun2 to find some "stuff" or literature review for  our RESEARCH subject which we suppOsed to hAnd in oN this cOmin wednesday...(iyaa kaa?)aNyways...rajin kan me?? *teeehi* n gUess wUt...nOw that the cLock shows its 10 minutes past 5, i cAn LOG IN pg my FACEBOOK accOunt aNd enjOying it while searching fOr thOse stUff yg i nEEd...(kUnun2)...
im here juga bcuz im waitin fOr my sis nurul who will fnsh wit her class at 6...it actuaLLy help me to become a "rAjin girl" as hari2 stAy library while waitin for her...cOOL kan kan...
aNother cool + EXCITING stOry for me is...IM HAPPY today! is dat a story ??? (bLurrrrr) naaaaaah...actually ada la stOry yg mAkes me saaaaaaaaangat super xda duper hAppy la juga bUt malas laa maw share cne...its a bit "CONFIDENTIAL"...hehe..takut malu plak nnt...shame2 me...
tOday is MONDAY n oUr cLass this mOrning wAs kiNda "siOk " like usual...i wAs kinda understand juga what miss faezah taught us dis morning...i actually love the way she lecture bUt its just me who malas i think...not "malas" apa...its just dat,the TIREDNESS that i usually feel sometimes makes me x cOncentrate in lecture cLass...tAmbah2 lagi, i wAs LAPAR n my like there was a bAnd performing inside my tUmmy...since i ddnt eAt last night kan...bfOre the class strted,we went oUt to cafe tO buy food for breakfast (trpksa mkan pagi as xda mkan the night befOre n perUt berbunyi2)...i bOught "mee gOreng"  aNd 3 pieces of chicken nUggets...n i eNjOyed the food  n it tAsted like OMG sdap2 ...tmbah2 lagi ada lada cili pAdi nya tUe...heee...
aaaaaNd this mOrning gak,oUr LAW class which sUpposedLy to be heLd at 10 as usual wAs "cAncelled" i think...bcUz kan...sir nAdzim ddnt shOwed up n we were there in FASTRACK waitin for him to come for like an hOur and 43 minUtes...hehe...rajin kan us...bUt eArLier,oOney  ada shOwed me,pRa,syAz n jAy abOut the text message yg sir nAdzim sent to him...the message sOunds like this;-
"Dear people,im dreadfully sOrry as i am transferred to Melaka.....and bla bla blaaa"
i caNt remember the exact text bUt im sUre it tells that sir nAdzim will nOt gOnna be oUr LAW309 lecturer anymore...(sAd kaa me??) he lectured well and i love the way taLk in frOnt...i can clearly understand all words and explanation that he gave and yaaa I LOVE the way he lecture laa...im wOnderin whO`s gOnna repLace sir nAdzim(sambiL tgOk2 hUjan yg bercucuran di luar tgkap library)...
dOnt kNow what to share lgi neh...im jUst gOnna wait for the cLock to turn to 6pm laa sja neh k...bye!

dont know what to put in as title...

heLLo meLLow yeLLow golo golo! hey! im in the uitm`s library yall...im hre to kunun2 to find some "stuff" or literature review for  our RESEARCH subject which we suppOsed to hAnd in oN this cOmin wednesday...(iyaa kaa?)aNyways...rajin kan me?? *teeehi* n gUess wUt...nOw that the cLock shows its 10 minutes past 5, i cAn LOG IN pg my FACEBOOK accOunt aNd enjOying it while searching fOr thOse stUff yg i nEEd...(kUnun2)...
im here juga bcuz im waitin fOr my sis nurul who will fnsh wit her class at 6...it actuaLLy help me to become a "rAjin girl" as hari2 stAy library while waitin for her...cOOL kan kan...
aNother cool + EXCITING stOry for me is...IM HAPPY today! is dat a story ??? (bLurrrrr) naaaaaah...actually ada la stOry yg mAkes me saaaaaaaaangat super xda duper hAppy la juga bUt malas laa maw share cne...its a bit "CONFIDENTIAL"...hehe..takut malu plak nnt...shame2 me...
tOday is MONDAY n oUr cLass this mOrning wAs kiNda "siOk " like usual...i wAs kinda understand juga what miss faezah taught us dis morning...i actually love the way she lecture bUt its just me who malas i think...not "malas" apa...its just dat,the TIREDNESS that i usually feel sometimes makes me x cOncentrate in lecture cLass...tAmbah2 lagi, i wAs LAPAR n my like there was a bAnd performing inside my tUmmy...since i ddnt eAt last night kan...bfOre the class strted,we went oUt to cafe tO buy food for breakfast (trpksa mkan pagi as xda mkan the night befOre n perUt berbunyi2)...i bOught "mee gOreng"  aNd 3 pieces of chicken nUggets...n i eNjOyed the food  n it tAsted like OMG sdap2 ...tmbah2 lagi ada lada cili pAdi nya tUe...heee...
aaaaaNd this mOrning gak,oUr LAW class which sUpposedLy to be heLd at 10 as usual wAs "cAncelled" i think...bcUz kan...sir nAdzim ddnt shOwed up n we were there in FASTRACK waitin for him to come for like an hOur and 43 minUtes...hehe...rajin kan us...bUt eArLier,oOney  ada shOwed me,pRa,syAz n jAy abOut the text message yg sir nAdzim sent to him...the message sOunds like this;-
"Dear people,im dreadfully sOrry as i am transferred to Melaka.....and bla bla blaaa"
i caNt remember the exact text bUt im sUre it tells that sir nAdzim will nOt gOnna be oUr LAW309 lecturer anymore...(sAd kaa me??) he lectured well and i love the way taLk in frOnt...i can clearly understand all words and explanation that he gave and yaaa I LOVE the way he lecture laa...im wOnderin whO`s gOnna repLace sir nAdzim(sambiL tgOk2 hUjan yg bercucuran di luar tgkap library)...
dOnt kNow what to share lgi neh...im jUst gOnna wait for the cLock to turn to 6pm laa sja neh k...bye!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

L.A.P.A.R!

SAYA LUPA SAYA BELUM MAKAN...siOk kannn??hehe...xpa laa..mLam ne aq pUasa laa nmpknyaa...tggU bsOk bru lunch tRus...hehe...(ketara bha xda dh idea maw type apa lagi untk d pOst)

L.U.P.A

heee...yeLLOw! lupa ne bha...actuaLLy malas bha bukan lupa...bnyak bNda i wAnna pOst cne bUt malas maw oNL9 n bLoggng dat time...nOw that i rajin,i wAnna share la yg "masa genting" or "masa argue2" was over..i mean, my frndship wit a friend of mine tu dha OK dha n syUkur alhmdulillah la kan...as u knOw juga yg i dOnt like iv kna bnci2 or gduh2 neh...everybOdy pown xska bha kan tapi itu laa...yg pNtg,we`re FINE n OK now...member2 gak msih...wlaupun agak awkward ckit laa bUt siOk gak la member2 bgne...ive toLd him i wAs sOrry for sMua yg bwAt he rsa x siOk hari tu or dLue...i wAs kinda SILLY n stUpid i think ...smpai xsdAr lgsung yg i wAs actuaLLy dha hUrt him scra tdak lgsung...bIUt everythng`s over nOw n mcm i said td,WE`RE FINE n member mmg! sukaaaa! (^_^)

bALik untk ceta for tOday,tDi my cUzzins (sis nrul.ejah) n atuL my sis ...kmi tLOng mak o (my aunt) jaga kdai rUncit dia d teLipok Ria...hehe...it wAs fUn n exciting ne bha cUz bLey amik experience bkrja n CUCI MATA paling pnting...hehe...(jOking!) we started at 2pm tdi when i actually lmbat smpai d sna cuz need to tLg umi kmas rmah dLu pagi smpai tgahri tue...1 smthng bgtu i fetchd nurul then sma2 pg kdai mak o d telipok tUe...smpai sna,we keja2 laa...ec ice dlam plastic...ssun2 brg2 runcit,mop lantai kdai,photostate kan krtas2 org n mcm laaa..hehe..(kunUn2 arr bnyaak) ...

n untk ceta lagi, i LUPA yg i haven`t dOne my assgnmnts ne bhaa..assgnmnts throUgh i-learn yg we shoULD submit oN tUesday klau x slap...oo oo...bLOm buat keja lagi...jap lg la bha kannn...skrg laa..so,jUmpa lgi la cUz knun2 rajin  ne aq maw bikin assgnmnts...hehe...bUbbye!.

AND...ada lagi L.U .P.A! i pLanned to write mOre psal my family,friends . cUzzins details n smua2 laa..bUt im gOnna do it later n jUst wAit fOr it...hehe...tUnggu yaaa...


IMISSMANGO!


IMISSMANGOSOMUCH!

hariyangpenuhriangria!

lama dha x updAte my bLog pLak kan kan...
anyway...im HAPPY! dUnno how to describe this feeling bUt sriously im happy...dUnnO y bUt i am HAPPY! untuk memulakan cerita, tAdi or yesterday (22 Jan), i was at hOme stengah hari n xda pg mNa2 melainkan dri jadi DRIVER d rmah ini...i went tO hntar n amik wiyAh n atuL d skOOL masing2...tRus i brought uMar wit me jUga ...tO accOmpany me actUaLLy...n we weNt to my uncLe hOuse cUz ada knduri at 2 in the afternoon...actuaLLy dat event strtd since 1pm bhaa bUt VVIP kan,dtg lmbat siiiiikit pOwn xpa(padahal 1jam lmbat bhaa)...heee...smpAi sna...we mkan laa...n untk djadikan ceta...d rmah my uncLe tu la me,kak nurul,farah n atul jAdi penyiasat yg mcm dLam CSI tu..sOLve a cAse kNun...we kUrik2 rahsia froM mak O right after we bncang2 yg ejAh mAybe ada d kK...she actUaLLy xda gtaw pOwn yg she wanna cOme to KK tO work here n she actuaLLy maw bikin sUrprised kNun...hehee...bUt x jadi cUz the penyiasat2 d cne dhA tAw dha her pLan...thAnx tO aLL the familY members yg tLah mmbantU kmi dlam mnjLnkan penyiasatan...hehe...i reaLLy wanna pUt in the whoLe stOry bUt agak pAnjang laaa...(MALAS!)
tRus kan...in the evening or petang2 bgtu,the penyiasat2 tdi tu telah bertukar tugAs menjadi tUkang masak d rmah bgsu ana(my aUnt)...we tLg2 bgsu prEpare fOOds or diNNer cUz mLmnya ada famiLy gathering d snaa...rmAi2 dtg n eAt together dsna mcm sLaLu la kan...bUt this time it was like mcm mKan2 last wit aBg shAfiq la cUz he mAw baLik UK ody...lama lg tu bRu bLik Sabah lg ...bUt apa2 pOwn,we`ve spent time tOgether gak laa..he even brOught his girl dtg mkan2 n jUmpa oUr famiLy gak n yeah...


n pada pukul 6.50pm,we wEnt oUt pg airpOrt to pick up ejAh yg kNun maw bikin sUrprised tU ...tp xjAdi sUrprise nya cUz we the penyiasat2 tLah came up wit  a pLan untk surprse her balik...teehi...we cAme up aNd it wOrks! siOk giLa cUz we lAughed sgat2 psaL lucu la bhaa...hehe...yg pnting sMua happy la tdi...trUs baLik pOwn time hujan lebat n paLing siOk,PAJERO yg aq drive tUe,wiper nya tertanggal sebelah tiba2 time hujan lebat tue...astaaaa...we`ve tO stop kjap d tepi n i wEnt oUt to kasi usai balik the wiper tp xdpat...jadi,dgan rasa bangganya tdi i drOve the pajero dgan hanya wiper sebeLah jak...(^_^)
sAmpai rumAh bgsu jak,we sAw fOOds sdha "ampAi2" d atas meja mkan n pLing siOk dilihat wAs the DAGING KAMBING PANGGANG yg bLeh dkatakan fuLL sAtu periUk besar dri THE HUT...OMG...trUs,ada SOTO LABUAN n ada gak few mOre dishes yg we`ve prepared earlier kNUn bUt pLing utAma was the KAMBING  laaa...hehe...



kAk iDa! n me...bUt kak ida xDa jOin us ...
 we spent time tOgether crita2 cUzzin2,mkan2 tghther,pLan thngs tghter n sMUa laa...sygnya,sis IDA xda wit us jUga dat time...n kak yaya...n kak adie...n kak jOjo..n sepa lg arr?
heee...apa2 pOwn,after kjnyang prUt bUncit2,we oL baLik la rmah msing2 n ended up d dpan lappy dh skrg update bLog...i even smpat chAt wit my babe aLif n share2 lagu ne knUn - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jBLHNpAPyA&feature=related ..tApi siOK gak la mmg cUz i like dat gUy pUnya vOice...hehe.. (^_^)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

TUESDAY morning!

mOrning peeps! gUess wUtt?xDa cLass kAmi tOday...hOw cool is dAt??heee...
cLass fOr tOday ada 1 jak bUt miss fArhana jUst srUh bUat HOMEWORK using i-learn ( uitm stdnts mAybe know abOut this thing) sjaa...
anyways...bOsan pLak ne d rmah skrg...pagi neh bfore 10, gOnna fetch sis nurul dri class...kjaaaaap lg...bUt the cLock sdh menunjukkan jam pkul 9.30...soooo...i wAnna mnta diri dLu n nnt jmpa lg fOr latest updates k...love love!

Monday, January 17, 2011

.............

hEy! im actuAlly sLeepy sdh nOw bUt still need tO at least write dOwn siiikiiiiiiiiiit pOwn xpa laaa...yg pNting, i LOVE my LIFE! hee...nNt laa update lagi...my eyes ngantok gLa ody neh...nanyte!

SADNESS dAtAng lagi~

hey ...gUess wUt...tears keep oN faLLing ne siNce tadi...i cAnt sLeep n tbA2 sdih lagi...i miss my cUzzins...i miss ejah...kak ieda...n dey ol yg ada wit me slalu when i used to cRy dLu2...x sgka plak the pAin msih lg smpai skrg sakitnya...i tOt i was totally over it bUt mcm x pLak...my chest sakit sgt n the teArs wOnt stOp faLLin....uRghhh! bgne pLak kan sakit diaa...never thOught of it...
tUkar cetaaa...uhmmm...im gettin ok nOw...nO more tears...i tHink...hee..
tAdi kan....actuaLLy...i jst came hOme dri pg celebrate bungsu ana`s n zUbayr`s birthday...teehi...we went mkan2 sna pRomenade...bUt picx,lupa pLak amik..apa2 pOwn,it was sgt2 "mengenyangkan" as we jUmpa many fOOds kan...kami apa lagi...mkan laa apa yg mampu dmakan...tAdi sepertinya rmai my cUzzies yg dtg...my uncLes and aUnts...n mcm besa,dat pLace dpenuhi oleh FAMILY KITANI jak...cOOL kan...separUh dari meja d sna tU,kAmi yang pUnya...(haha...ktawa jahat!)n pAling siOk tdi, pUas cUci mata n i even terpaku n terpana by this mAcho vOice wAiter yg hanya dRg cUzzins kOO yg ada dgnku tadi jak tau mcmna...hehe...*sweeeeeeet*
uNtuk shAre2...cUrrentLy im listening tO this sOng yg i think sgat memikat jiwa n raga koo aLready... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll1HQdDuGRw ...the sOng siOk kAn...i love thOse gUys pnya vOices...memikat gtU...
 n this sOng by SARA EVANS...sOoooo ada kna mngna i think! hUh!
better sLeep cUz cLass pAgi nNt will strts at 8...sO...off fOr bed nOw! nyte peeps! LOVE LOVE! miss him! (sempat lagi bha!) byeee!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

dimalamhariyangdinginlagisepi...

its 1.30am n im still awake...still xdpat tdUr bhaa! i was having a bAd migrAin jUst nOw and ada msih ckit2 laa dat pain until nOw...i dnt know y bUt mcm balik2 juga dis migrain ...maybe juga la bcAuse of stress or wUt so eva kann...dO u even care?
lets see...toDay...i mean,yesterday, 15th Jan,i was at hOme for the whole day...x juga la cUz we went tO abg deen`s hOuse ptg lpas asar tue...ada kendUri for his new house...mkan2 gtu looo...actually, i ody planned mAw hang oUt wit my baba afif dgan cweknya sis nAd...mAw hang oUt wit em n sambil2 tgOk drg bAtchmate koo main fUtsal...im taLkin abOut drg jOy,Ooney,jAnUb,syAz,abU and other dpa05 guys ...dgan niAt untk menziarahi saudara koo, plan maw pg spend time wit friends trpaksa dbatalkan...apa2 pOwn,im a bit frUst laa jugaa..bUt wUt to do kan... :p
u kNow wUt, time sUnyi2 bgne ne laa my thOughts and everythng t`ingat balik abOut the "other day" ...i miss .... sOooo much! S.O.S! klau laaa ... knows kan bgus...how painful it is to miss sUm1 yg bLom tau lgi they might feel the same way or nOt...
I thought I was over him, done with him but then there he was, and I couldn't breathe. ..
aMd  do you ever miss me? I mean truly, aching in bottom-of-your-heart pain, which you just can't ignore? Because that's how I feel. Every single day...(cewaaaaaah) bUt seriOusLy dats hOw i feel...
need tO sLeep bUt my eyes xmaw ttUp...bLom ngantuk pOwn....bUt i`ll tRy...so..yaa...see ya bLoggie bLog bLog kOO!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

uitm d hatiku...

heyheyhey...gUess wUt...skrg im in the library! haha...UITM`s library jooo...hehe...
we sUpposed to hve a class with sir nadzim (LAW class) bUt he xda shOwd up...so...yaaa..kmi kLuar awal...teehi...after dis janub wanna go mkan n lepak2 kjap bfOre pg klas miss dyg (ETR class)...tgah tggu msg dri drg lar ney then ichOw cincau...huhu...
sgat sejuk d cne library yaa..new library lakatakan...huhu...all of us xtaw maw bwat apa neh...smua tgah sUrf internet n xtaw tgah tgOk apa ...FB xdpat buka plak buat msa neh...cian mmg...
...okay..jUst received a txt frOm uniey n nOw maw p lepaking dlu d kdai2 yg brdekatan k...jUmpa lagi...SOWT!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

******

i knOw i shouldn`t taLk or bwat apa2 about the past bUt i cant heLp it...aq btul2 maw type juga...luahkan everythng bgtu lorr...SAKIT!

hUrt! pAin! HELP!

sad fAce...nampak kan the "bengkak2" d atas n bwah my eyes?{ kNa tumbuk kali ah}
it was on 26th Dec 2010 (the next day when the relatiOnship tUrns jUst 3mOnths)...
my sis atuL tOOk this picx when we wAs sOmewhre arOUnd in kK to bring kak ida n ejah (my bLuvd cUzzins frOm KL)...few hOurs befOre, ive received a text from a persOn that has nver contacted me for 2 days and suddenLy send me a text which was actuaLLy hUrt and mmbUat aq sakit dada gila2 cuz im a type of persOn who will cry silently(in other words,nangis xda sUara bUt nangis yg gila2 sdh ne bha)...kan if aq mrah,geram,happy n sedih i`ll menitiskan airmata n cRy and bla bla blaa...
smbUng ceta td...after received the text at 2 smthng early in the morning,i was unable to control the tears from nOt bercucuran...it hUrt so much until i cried yg xpnah2 ne bhaa..nangis yg t`esak2 mcm bdak2 kna pkul tu...i was aLone that time as my sisters tdur sdh n i have nO one to talk to...except my babe yg i called cuz dha xthan dha n really need to taLk to sOmeoNe...nsib gak he ada to comfort me bUt still it was reaLLy hard for me to tahan my tears from bercucuran...(oNLy he kNows dia kna pggil babe)...n my another girlfriend cyeakin pOwn dha tdo dh,jd xmaw kcAu laaa...
my GF ,cyeAkin

after like half an hour mnangis,sis nrul koo terbangun cuz she saw me cry and i was not d atas the bed  wit her at that time...she comforted me rght after that until i fell asleep pkul 4pagi begitu...smpai la bangun 3hours after dgan mataku yg teramat bengkaknyaa...mcm kna stung by a bee(cOoL ayte?)
the pAin i feLt msh lg smpai skrg n its hard to tell how painful it is...ive tried to lupa everythng...evry kata2 manis,bullshit promises, n other crAps...bUt still bLm dpat sepenuhnya do dat...its nOt easy ok...i dOnt knOw about the other person cuz aq rsa dia x la sdih sgat after what dia dha bwat...all reasOns yg dia bg,ssh maw pcya ne bha yg he also sedih sgt mcm yg dia ckap...it seems like snang btul untk dia lupa smuanya n nOw dia act like nothing spcial ever happen to both of us...snang la maw ckap,"xpyah sedih2 lagi"...bkan dia yg rsa pown apa yg aq rsa kan...n defferent pple,dffrent way of handling it bhaa...n im the persOn who sgt sensitive n dia pown knows that...bUt still, hUrt me like hell...
i dOnt know what exactly the reason behind all these craps that happen but aq rsa, dia look for a better person than i am..i mean, lg cantik,cerah kulitnya,ada KOREAN look,sporty,kurus and bla bla blaa...benarkah? cUz if its true...paling TAHNIAH laaa...