Tuesday, January 4, 2011

hUrt! pAin! HELP!

sad fAce...nampak kan the "bengkak2" d atas n bwah my eyes?{ kNa tumbuk kali ah}
it was on 26th Dec 2010 (the next day when the relatiOnship tUrns jUst 3mOnths)...
my sis atuL tOOk this picx when we wAs sOmewhre arOUnd in kK to bring kak ida n ejah (my bLuvd cUzzins frOm KL)...few hOurs befOre, ive received a text from a persOn that has nver contacted me for 2 days and suddenLy send me a text which was actuaLLy hUrt and mmbUat aq sakit dada gila2 cuz im a type of persOn who will cry silently(in other words,nangis xda sUara bUt nangis yg gila2 sdh ne bha)...kan if aq mrah,geram,happy n sedih i`ll menitiskan airmata n cRy and bla bla blaa...
smbUng ceta td...after received the text at 2 smthng early in the morning,i was unable to control the tears from nOt bercucuran...it hUrt so much until i cried yg xpnah2 ne bhaa..nangis yg t`esak2 mcm bdak2 kna pkul tu...i was aLone that time as my sisters tdur sdh n i have nO one to talk to...except my babe yg i called cuz dha xthan dha n really need to taLk to sOmeoNe...nsib gak he ada to comfort me bUt still it was reaLLy hard for me to tahan my tears from bercucuran...(oNLy he kNows dia kna pggil babe)...n my another girlfriend cyeakin pOwn dha tdo dh,jd xmaw kcAu laaa...
my GF ,cyeAkin

after like half an hour mnangis,sis nrul koo terbangun cuz she saw me cry and i was not d atas the bed  wit her at that time...she comforted me rght after that until i fell asleep pkul 4pagi begitu...smpai la bangun 3hours after dgan mataku yg teramat bengkaknyaa...mcm kna stung by a bee(cOoL ayte?)
the pAin i feLt msh lg smpai skrg n its hard to tell how painful it is...ive tried to lupa everythng...evry kata2 manis,bullshit promises, n other crAps...bUt still bLm dpat sepenuhnya do dat...its nOt easy ok...i dOnt knOw about the other person cuz aq rsa dia x la sdih sgat after what dia dha bwat...all reasOns yg dia bg,ssh maw pcya ne bha yg he also sedih sgt mcm yg dia ckap...it seems like snang btul untk dia lupa smuanya n nOw dia act like nothing spcial ever happen to both of us...snang la maw ckap,"xpyah sedih2 lagi"...bkan dia yg rsa pown apa yg aq rsa kan...n defferent pple,dffrent way of handling it bhaa...n im the persOn who sgt sensitive n dia pown knows that...bUt still, hUrt me like hell...
i dOnt know what exactly the reason behind all these craps that happen but aq rsa, dia look for a better person than i am..i mean, lg cantik,cerah kulitnya,ada KOREAN look,sporty,kurus and bla bla blaa...benarkah? cUz if its true...paling TAHNIAH laaa...

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