Friday, February 25, 2011

awfuL.exhAusted.stress.sAd.speechless.

hey! lma ddnt update my bLog mmg...
im kiNda bUsy wit assignments and dadadadaaa...
anyways,im ffeLing sooooooooooo DOWN ryte nOw...nOt in a mOOd to smile,and smua yg siOk2 laa...im sooo sad siNce yesterday i think..yesterday when i foUnd oUt abOUt a trUth yg mMg i ody knOw since dLu bUt wAs cOnfirmed yesterday...
i wAs sooo hUrt aNd feLt like ive been used ...(wlaupun if dats nOt the intention of him)...bUt stiLL,i dont feel good abOUt it...im sad and feel dat its awfuL when treated dat way...i really2 cAnt describe wUt the exact word for this feeling cUz smuaa feeling ada neh...urgggghhhh!
seriOusLy,n frAnkly typing...I AM NOT GONNA EASILY TRUST GUYS WORD dat cOme oUt frOm their d*** mOuth or wUt so eva...
dUnnO laa bUt ITS HARD TO TRUST thOse fuckin woRds ody...mcm bUnyi frUst and sdih bha kan...NAMUN,its nOt! it shOws dat i really am x sUka lagi for wUt had happened tO the trUst aNd apa2 yg oDy gve in a realtiOnship...(soooooo emO!) TOLONGLAH PLANET!
i jUst fnished CRYING! haha...djadikan ceta,tAdi i cried...dUnno y bUt tonite im kinda EMO ckit...psal bnda yg kemarin i found oUt tu la tu...trus td tba2 i was tOuched by a post by my girlfirnds..tapi ternyata I WAS THE ONE yg sensitive sgat n it was just a misunderstood...i cried cUz i was afraid dat i might lose them n not having them by my side..i love both mmg.(cyeakin n pJa) n dats y im afraid to lose them...bUt things cleared n smua ok bUt i was still crying bcUz HAL TADI tu..huhu..
i cried peeps! mcm besa la kan..im oweys gOnna dat whenever im upset,mad,happy,excited and everything...dats PIQA!
apa2 pown,mcm mAw mninggal bsok plak aq rsa tonite cUz smua yg jarang tegur me,they actually tegur me,b`comment n ceta wit me ne mlam..i feel like everybOdy LOVE me...mcm everybOdy care aboUt me n I LOBVE THEM ALL jugaaa! im kinda happy n tau gak yg mmg ada rmai lagi oUt thre yg oweys be thre for me..my abah..umi..my siblings...cuzzins,girlfriends..friends...hee...

Monday, February 21, 2011

I.AM.SO.IN.LOVE!




BRUNO MARS BRUNO MARS BRUNO MARS! awwwwwwwwwwwww!
i am sooooo in love with his vOice! n maybe the look juga laa BUT paling pnting, I LOVE his vOice...
im at hOme...wAiting tO get ready fOr cLass at 2...sir mAt zin`s cLass! (saaaaaaaaLin!)
anyway,its been a long time since the last day i updated my bLog..apa2 pOwn, see u later!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

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hEy! i wAnna type mAny things here bUt dUnno whre tO start...ive been spending my time dOin assignments dat still haven`t fnish until nOw...
i wanna type many things bUt my eyes are gettin ... im off for bed nOw...n just pUt all thOughts of him aqay...love ya! miss ya!
LOVE LOVE peeps!

Monday, February 14, 2011

DILEMMA???kaa any other wOrd dAt sUits hOw i feel ryte nOw??

hey...its been quite  along time since the last day i updated my dEar bLog...n im decide on updating and made this entry after i read a bLog of a friend of mine...ive nO idea...im sAd...im bLurrr..im speechless(of cOz laa..type plak ne kan)...anyway...im soooo SAD..i think...apa org mlayu bilang,sedih..or maybe the word TOUCHED yg ngam kali...im so terharu by a person yg really2 ..i dnt know laa...i dnt knOw dat sUm1 can love me dat mUch although ive responded quite few times ony...ive nO idea hOw to face dat person...dat person is a kind person and i dnt wanna hurt the pUre n sincere heart that the person have...im soooo tOuched n feel like crying ryte nOw...i dnt knOw how to tell that there`s still only ONE person i love the mOst untill nOw other than my family n frnds laa...bUt stiLL...ive nO idea at all...





sriously i dOnt wanna hurt that person...i just ...urghhhhhhhhhhhh! im in the middle of smwhre where i still need tO get over sUm1 althoUgh im still really really really love dat person ...i dnt knOw...srius aq xtaww...tLg laa pLanet...ksian bha iv i cant gve dat oerson what dat person want...LOVE! COMPLICATED...isnt it? mcm2 bhaa..e2 laa..umi slalu ckap,"jgan la dlu maw bcnta2 neh..study laa dlu"...bUt nOthings wrOng wit it bha kan...the feeling cannOt be avoided ryte...its jUst dat Ure the one yg ptut tahu hOw to handle it...bUt, i admit that im nOt strOng enOugh tO do that n i knOw everybOdy`s nOt...
its gettin late peeps...bnyak bha i wanna type here bUt lmbat dha..nNt pagi maw pg klas...sooo...LOVE LOVE!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

saya mengantUk!

hAri ini saaaaaaaaaaaaangat siOk ! bUt ada gak yg xsiOk nya laa...apa2 pOwn,biar gAntung cUz im gOnna update n ec ceta2 yg lain later...my eyes gLa2 berat ody nOw n im off fOr bEd k peeps! LOVE LOVE!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

TYPELESS...lol

hey...lma ka i ddnt updAte new entry?hee...bUsy dOin assigNments n stUdied fOr test n qUizzes la katakan..(rAjinn oo me...hehe)
aNyways...i feeL like updAting my bLog tOnite...(night ka lg when its 12 oclock in the midnight)hee...
i am dAmn tiRed as eventhOugh my cLass shouLd start at 4pm tOday after the 8am class was cancelled, i wOke up earLy in the mOrning n have tO hantar c tOyOl to cLass n everythng...n at 10, i went to kasi kwan my sis nru; to urus her keja ckit then we went tO amik her lappy yg she sent tO KARAMUNSING to kna baiki...then...we baLik itm cUz we need to gO to the lbrary tdi tgahri cUz msing2 ada keja mAw bwat d sna...i wAs dOin sOme revision on my LG d sna with cyeakin my bAbe n jAnub aNd oOney...hee..i met my bAbe aLif gak sna  wit awAnk n meL his classmate...then,ada cLass at 4 n ada qUiz lg after wAiting for prOf mAtzin for like an half an hOur cUz he ada meeting...class ended at 6 aNd yaaa...smbUng again until mlam..cLass LAW plak at 7...naaa...
aNyway...pnaaaaat laa bhaa...


i caLLed umi (my mOm) yesterday n asked her abOut my lil brO uMar...he actuaLLy went for his first kindergarten school n umi sAid that he did cried bcUz maybe he`s still in a "lovemyhOuse" mood n everythng...bUt things gettin better when the time he fnshd his kindergarten sessiOn n jOined umi in cLass while my mUm is mengajar sna...pLus,AIMAN his best bUddy was in the class where my mUm ajar n mcm besa...the cLass pOwn rbUt bcuz they pLayed "tembak2" by using their penciL bOx n i can imAgine hOw cUte they were at that time ...hhaa...(fham ka jUga the sitUation??)heee...

  
my bLuvd lil brO UMAR
umAr`s bEst bUddy n oUr bLuvd cUzzin, AIMAN




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imisshim! wish dAt i cAn loopa all this things easiLy...n lmbt tO regret n i admit dat its better nOt to mess up wit LOVE n tO be in love...i knOw its nOt wrOng to do so bUt itu laaa... mlasss laa wanna taLk abOut it,..jUst wanna share wit u dEar siLent bLoggy...imisshimdamnmuch! :'((  

 
okie dOkie...enOugh fOr today i think...dUnnO apa mAw share lg...my eyes pOwn dh mAw tutOp...soooo...nyte...LOVE LOVE! 

Saturday, February 5, 2011

its me again!

hey!
kiNda bUsy lately...i wAs spending my time at mak O`s (my aUnt) hse in tUaran...bUsy helping her wit her "kedai rUncit"...hee..jAdi pengUsaha kedai bhaa try2 kan...bUt it wAs fUn...cOoL ...yEt a bit tiring...ejAh(my bLuvd cUzzie), atuL  (my adik tersayang) n i didnt gEt enOugh sLeep n we were sO damn tired spAnjang the time i wAs there...cAnt imAgine hOw tired ejah is cUz she`s kiNda aLone d sna withOut atul n me n other cUzzins...pity her..wish dAt i cAn be thre oweys n helpd her or accOmpany her... :((
im tiRed gLa2 ryte nOw...ddnt get enOugh rest gAk...n i jUst finished dOin sOme "revision" oN PAD 365...cUz we r gOin to have a TEST on this cOmin mOnday..wOkehhh! rajin kannn meeee?? hee...
there r mAny things yg im thinkin abOut ryte nOw...bUt dUnno whre shOuLd i start...i jUst dUnno whAt exActLy im thinkin ryte nOw...gOnna update my bLog again...LATER...
love love!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

"KAWAN"

JUST FRIEND ok???


 it hUrts me a lot bUt the fAct need tO be faced...sooo...yaaa...im gLad n hAppy dat the relationship still ada bUt jUst let me be the one yg feel the pAin aNd JUST me jak laa...oNLy aq jak taw the pAin n everythng yg hUrt me gLa2...its nOt easy tO get rid of everythng n it needs time...bUt still, i feel yg nOthing cAn ever chAnge the feeLing aNd the pAin n L*** yg i hAve sKrg...
forgot tO kasi msUk dis in the earlier enTry...
ya aLLah...pLease heLp me sO dat i cAn get over him n tLg laa sO dat im nOt gOnna sUffer sndri2 lg nnt cUz it DAMN hurt...u knOw ka sakitnya when he taLked abOut finding other girl...n when the time he asked me to find sOmeone better than him whom i deserve better...it hurts sO much when he said that as there is nO chance for us nO more... i knOw im a bit EMO tonite bUt this is hOw i feel n i dUnno where tO share all dis cRap...takUt nnt pple bOsan maw dgar my cer neh...klau bLogging ne,my bLog jUst gOnna diam2 n tgOk im typing...tEars faLLin mcm besa ryte nOw...i jUst cAnt hOLd it nO more weii..saaaaaaaaaaaakit gLa! im txting wit him mcm besa n act like we`re ok(bUt mmg oK pown)...its just dat,ME...im the oNe yg stiLL cAnt get over it...fOr thOse yg knOw me,they all taw la IF ONCE I`VE LOVED SOMEONE,THAT SOMEONE GONNA BE LOVED ALWAYS...everybOdy knOws its hard gLa tO loopa bNda yg drg rsa BEST MOMENTS for them kan kan....dats hOw im sUffering ryte nOw...IM CRYING gLa2 ryte nOw! pity mee...aNyone??? :'((  tO be hOnest,deep inside me,mmg ada hOpe so dat things jadi mcm dLu again...bUt tgOk keadaan sKrg ne...tAmbah sAkit laaa dada...


HEY! wei! yayyyy!

heLLo meLLow! i sUppOsedly dh tdO by nOw bUt stiLL mnahan mata ini bcUz of the INETESTING news oN whAts hAppening in EGYPT...akbal a friend of mine yg tOLD me abOut dat n tup tup tup...the repOrt qUite interesting n i trUs expLore mOre on it...its kinda HOT news dh juga...it even kLuar d brta d tV of cOz cUz  it invoLved MALAYSIAN pple yg still ada d egypt itself...sO...many thngs hAppen n its kiNda BAD ngettin WORSE as egypt sepertinya bcOme gLa2 CHAOS...well, iv u wAnna share n knOw mOre hOw interesting it is, cLick oN thOse LINKS beLow...
http://www.almasryalyoum.com/en/multimedia/video/alexandria-mourns-anger-victims
http://sherahxoxo.blogspot.com/2011/01/kisah-sebenar-di-egypt-baca-dan.html?spref=fb
http://www.almasryalyoum.com/en
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/1/31/apworld/20110131211046&sec=apworld
http://krisismesirnasibrakyatkita.blogspot.com/

n banyak lgi n i`ll update it sOOn k...
mata ngAtuk gLa ody n im off fOr bed peeps! love love!