Thursday, July 18, 2013

:'(

Assalamualaikum.

Setelah sekian lama... 18 July, 2013.
After few months without any entry, im back with banyak sangat stories to share. Stories of my life and experiences i had for past 4 months . Happy and sad experiences and stuffs happened and yaa still im thankful that I still given the chance to live until this moment. Alhamdulillah.

To begin with, for the past few months, semua kisah gembiraku sudah tidak bererti lagi as I had experienced the darkest moment of my life which sememangnya setiap manusia or hamba Allah x akan jangka. Ajal di tangan Allah and setiap satu daripada makhluk Allah yg dijadikan di bumi nie, semua akan kembali padaNya juga. The man I called 'ABAH' sudah kembali kepada Allah terlebih dahulu. 

17 March 2013 was the day abah left us. Sakit dan rindu pada abah, serius hanya Allah jak yg tau. Selebar mana pun senyumanku di luar sana, tapi luka dan rindu dalam hati ni x siapa pun tahu betapa sakitnya smua tu. "Life must go on"... well thats what almost semua org told me. I have to accept the fact hat I no longer have someone yg boleh dipanggil ABAH. I will no longer have someone who have the same favorite football team with me... I will no longer have someone that I can watch Man United's games with. I will no longer have someone who know me well dalam apa hal pun. I will no longer have someone who always care and waited for me bila lambat balik rumah. I will no longer have someone yg will smile and comfort me even when I get bad results. I will no longer have chance to spend my time dengan insan yg namanya ABAH. The one who I respected much. The one who I always proud of. The one who always try to bagi kami segalanya sellagi mampu, The one who never failed to let us down on anything.
Sakit...serius sakit. and hanya Allah yang tahu. Sorry that Im not able to proceed this writing as emotion had taken over. Till then, assalamualaikum. 

Al Fatihah buat abahku, Hafanan Mohamad. :'(

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

updates?

Assalamualaikum....

Hey... maganda arau!  Frankly, im too lazy, busy and zy zy to update things here but still...I AM TYPING and UPDATING...setelah sekian lama...right?

As we can see today...things happen. Too many and I just dont know where to start. I used to have passion in writing or typing and sharing thoughts etc. It seems like things change. Things surround me change. People around me change.Me myself change. Ujian dan dugaan dari Allah dtg bertimpa2 and honestly, I used to me wondered why such things happen to me and now, I even bersyukur untuk semua tu. Bersyukur sebab semua yg terjadi Allah swt SUDAH TENTUKAN DAN EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR REASON. Allah Maha Besar and ingat jak tu selalu. In shaa Allah.


#prayforsabah, #prayforlahaddatu and etc trending sekarang .Those yang xtau menahu or yg xda mengkaji what excactly happen pun semuanya sudah ikut2 bagi spekulasi yg nonsense which make things worse, I think. All we should do is just doa yang semuanya baik2 jak. Let the government and yg berkenaan do the rest. Right? 



 Doa pada Allah and serah & tawakal untuk apa yg terjadi and bakal terjadi. (ada mcam gaya2 trip2 ka gne neh? Im trying to be serious here. 



Berbalik kepada kisah hidupku,kisah peribadiku yg x terlalu peribadi actually... Family is part of my life. Abah,umi, atul,amin,wiyah and Omar...I love them and I do care about em. Its just that I ddnt really show it like some other people selalu buat. Currently, ulang alik dari KK-Labuan and Labuan- KK sdh jadi routine to me. Since my family moved to Labuan sdah, that is what I selalu buat skrg just to spending time and helping drg abah and grandpa  yg sekarang nie dua2 kurang sihat. Many issues and really hope that I can get rid of itsolve it or maybe get use to it. As the "love story" of mine, i;ll just leave it to Allah. Doa is the most crucial thing that needed and matters now. 

Doakan jak anak umi abah nie, kakak adik2ku, cucu nenek2 nie, anak buah aunt & uncle, sahabat dan hamba Allah agar selalu kuat and strong dalam menghadapi apapun yg Allah bagi dan tentukan. Doakan jak semuanya baik2 saja untuk kita semua di dunia nie. Doakan jak setiap satu dari kita yg masih hidup hari ni agar dapat sentiasa ingat Pencipta kita, sentiasa ingat kebesaranNya and most of all be thankful utk apa pun. 
Peace. Lovelove! 

Asslamaualaikum. 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

F.A.M.I.L.Y

Assalamualaikum...

Hey! Its been awhile...lama juga la mmg.

The reasons WHY lama x blog-ing...

- No time for myself.
- Ada internet NAMUN Im not enjoying blogging through phone.
- Been busy all the time as I spend my days on the road, KK atau Labuan.
- Been busy dalam melaksanakan tanggungawab as a daughter,anak sulong,cucu neneks,anak buah aunts &             uncles and hamba Allah yg hina ini.


So, Alhamdulillah hamba Allah ne still given chance to breath again smpai sekarang. Hati tergerak utk menaip  sini tiba2. I just dont know why. FAMILY. Penting mmg keluarga for me. Even utk semua pun, family is important. The crucial part in life,perhaps?

Allah Maha Besar and Allah has decided ways,path or episodes dalam hidup kita masing2. This time, episode di mana I found out that mmg betul lah kata orang manusia tiada yang sempurna. Hidup yang kita sangka perfect and indah selama ini is not last forever.

Banyak mau ditaip to explain what I really feel right now but my hands refused to do so. Apapun, really hope that SOME or FEW dari family drg tu baca la ne post. 
Di sini, I kinda beg forgiveness from you guys kalau memang ada hati yang disakiti,badan yg terasa atau anything yang buat the layanan from ur part of family berbeza dari dulu. It is obvious yg semua berbeza compared to masa sebelum nie. Salah silap dari mana2 of my family members, minta dimaafkan,diampunkan and semua yg berkaitan dgannya. Like seriously, all of sudden I dont think I should put this on the Intenet atau share di mana2. Namun, It s kinda important juga cuz mana la tau,one of them baca nie post.  

Untuk masa nie, apologizing saja mampu. Mudah2an semuanya Ok.

Till we meet again. Lovelove! Assalamualaikum.